some things are jus not meant to be..so why not keep it that way, eh?

if u guys are wondering, i'm ok (atleast i'm alive and stuff..) so thanks alot for the concern.
in anycase, 2 more weeks to NS. this has gotta be the worst 2 weeks of my life..now i have to concern myself over my potential lack of sleep in the army (hence i'm trying to sleep 12 hours a day..it does accumulate and distribute, rite?) and my potential torture and torment in boot camp (i'm tryin to pamper myself as much as possible now..haha). worst of all, i won't be able to smell home for 2 weeks straight! u guys may not miss me, but i'll definitely miss YOU..so this 2 lonely weeks will be very hard.
heard abt route march and stuff..and how u're supposed to carry sacks that weigh abt a third of ur own body weight and march a distance of 3km.man..the thought alone makes me shudder.haha.and how u gotta do pull ups and gotta go thru tekan during army...i can't imagine sia.what more is there to expect?
funny how things turn out. before the 'A's..i was very VERY looking forward to the day i step onto tekong.after the 'A's...i'm so very VERY looking forward to another year of books.haha.yes..i'm bored.now i truly understand the feelings of retired ppl and why we are always taught to stay at home and make the old folks in the family feel..at home.cos if i can't take the loneliness and depressing boredom...how will they?haha..i'll prob end up super talkative when i see u guys la..so please be nice and be very patient when i spend hours talking to you about NS?
been wanting to get myself in shape for the army...but somehow the idea of doing weights and running always clashes with my original plan to pamper and enjoy myself.in other words...i can't get myself to exercise! argh! vincent!! when you are finish working, we GOTTA head out to the gym again!! haha...think i'll run three 2.4km runs in a day sia!! but honestly...what's there to train arh?
in case u're not convinced i'm really ok, here i go into my favourite past time. Manchester United is firmly in 3rd place! hell yeah! considering the kinda lousy start they had, its simply amazing the way the climbed up to 3rd (though still 9 points off the pace). arsenal is still 4 points ahead (assuming they win against newcastle) but in my experience playing CM, 4 points ain't alot! haha..was wonderin where did liverpool run to...and i realised they are not in the top 6! haha..(oops!) singapore rocks..watching the match against mynmar.both sides managed to score 3 goals in the space of 5 minutes!haha...talk about top defenders in ASEAN..but for once singapore looks rather solid in their play.not extravagant, but efficient. mayb its really time to watch S-league matches again, eh?
kinda turned down 2 chances to go out without explaining properly. sorry guys frm PCPS...i really couldn't go out with u guys today cos 1. i'm broke 2. i kinda hav to stay home tonite...i'm ok in the day but not really at nite. n sorry to the guys frm 4G...i really wanted to play soccer w u guys and stuff...but i can't get out of the punggol rain sia..it was so heavy cats and dogs will be an understatement.some1 shld try LIONS and WOLVES for a change...but that doesn't mean i'm not bored! help!!
funny how things turn out..actually did sth i didn't think i would have ever done. actually managed to chat with jo for a good hour or so...and it didn't feel awkward.glad that she's doin fine n stuff..kinda caught onto amanda's bad idea of slacking now and finding a job nxt year.though the possibility will nvr exist again, it sure felt nice talkin to her (nice as in i'm bored and it felt great to have someone to talk to la!). that kinda made this rather..sad year end good i gues?
anyone going for the COUNTDOWN PARTY at sentosa ?? haha..i'm REALLY sorry i can't go out with the guys cos...its my mum's bday.jus realised i won't be able to go sentosa either cos..its my mum's bday.darn...guess its another year of watching TV sia.
eh amanda, you still bored? think this one quite long liao rite? haha..been considerin though. shld i turn up for a party thrown for a person i'm not particularly close to? how does it make that person feel if i showed up but made no attempt at masking my faint distaste? is it better if i didn't show up actually? hmmm...
will update again soon...so cya peepz! peace~!
in all seriousness..some things will nvr change.guess i pushed some things too hard and expected too much out of you.but what hurt me most is the almost casual way u seem to take this.its more den casual to me.it mite have been "trial" and all for u, but i jus wanna let you know that the moment u said yes, i actually tot u were serious about it.u kept my hopes up for an entire week for nothin, and you did what she did not too long ago.it hurts.alot.since you'll forget about it this easily, i'll return the favour by telling you thanks alot for that 1 week of temporary excitement and permanent PAIN and HURT.you may seek friendship after this, but i'm sure glad i have 2 years to burn n not see you, cos things will never be the same.hope u find a more deserving guy cos i sincerely regret actually telling you how i feel..i feel so cheated.not by you only, but by my own blindness.nvr truly understood your reasons,but if u got pissed by my comments abt ur race,i'm equally incensed by ur excuse.if letting ppl know abt us brings you so much embarrassment,why fuckin lie to me?!if u hav nothin to hide, like me, why not let ppl know?she had her mom,n i forgive her.but not you..