this post is meant as a cleaning session to clear away all the skeltons in my closet..so i'm gonna be very very honest.do forgive me if i've offended u in anyway. n since i won't be updating all that often for the nxt 2 years, prob take this as one of the last entries i'll ever write.
i'll start off with s09, since ALOT of you (yea...i know who has been reading.jus cos u dun tag on my board n my counter can't register who's been reading doesn't mean i duno roughly who's reading) visit this blog on a fairly regular basis.the class started out with alot of promise, atleast personally, but it didn't end as nicely as i tot it would.lots of things happened (dun really know everything n dun wanna know) so...guess this is the best s09 can get given the situation.hope we do stay in touch n prob have more get-togethers. I'm sorry if i offended any1 in the 2 years in class..cos if I did, its not my true intentions n i'm terribly sorry.
to the girls, well i'm never remotely close to any of the girls in class, but part of it is due to me la.kinda disliked the clique thing, n all the mind bloggling internal politics jus grates on my nerves..hence i've more or less decided to not talk to any1 much (ofcos, other den the 3 in nj043 la), if not at all.some of the guys have always talked abt a powerhouse group in the class, n though the idea sounds absurd, it really happened.that's probably why i wrote the entry a long time ago, which nevertheless angered a few, but that's exactly how i feel.it may safe time by planning things already n start spreading the info thru a few select ppl, but if its gonna be a class thing, shouldn't we involve the planning to the class? some ppl may not enjoy the idea, n some others may have better ideas. but what's in the past shall be left buried, yea?
to the guys, u guys rock sia..always made my life in nj fun n filled with laughter, n ofcos lots of slacking and crap la.haha.without you guys my life in nj would've been as dull as the nj uniform.yaozong, yeechwan, vincent, weijie, heming, henry, derwin, junyuan..thanks!though we had a little differences every now and then, u guys have been honest about it and we have more or less ironed out all those differences, yea? let's meet up when we do book out! haha..admire our bald heads! 09 flag unit!
to nj043..hell you peepz rock! though we didn't really get off on the right foot (i admit, my perpetual unwillingness to talk was a big mistake on my part..n my weird personality makes things difficult..sorry!) but i'm glad we ended up rather close.haha.how many ppl still have pw grp outings?! anyway thanks alot for all the crap n fun-filled sessions, n SOME ppl still owe the others a treat hor?haha.
the softball team of 03/04 has been a rather tightly-knitted team, i guess.haha.probably cos of our super willingness to laugh at prashanth n our endless need to talk thrash..but i guess we did the best we could do in the season.hopefully we'll still meet up as a team n stuff, yea? though i've actually received more from the team den i give, i sure hope i've not let any1 of you down thru-out the season..
all the CIs...well i've not been a very active member of the area 15 committee (always tot school's more important n shld be our number 1 priority) but i hope i've played a...sufficient part?haha.though the ATC i was incharged of was mainly run by xiaojun instead, i definitely benefitted from the experience n certainly enjoyed every moment i've been in that committee..or jus being at the meetings la.certainly enjoyed the camps though!
oh...n the 4G ppl (and all the ppl in chinese high la)..u guys totally suck sia.haha.always organize outings when I'm not around! what the heck..but now every1's going into the army, so...prob nxt outing (which usually comprises of soccer first rite?) will be when we all can book out?haha...hope u guys do well in 'A's n see u guys soon! oh yea...yinghao, go study la! u can't get retained again in year 2 sia...

i'm done with the groups, now to the individuals who made a difference (good or bad...well..u decide la)
justin (i know, u're in the army already) : thanks for always being there yea? u always made me feel better when i'm down, n though this might sound abit gay (u said it urself in that sms) but yea, we'll always be there for each other?haha.though we ain't that close to begin with, we somehow have been honest with each other i think that kinda help build that trust, yea? though every1 else in this section will be girls, tot i'll jus tell u how much i appreciate ur help la
sab (i know u'll read this): thanks for always being there too!haha.been like...3 years? u've always been that wonderful little sister i nvr had, n thanks alot for all your help! haha.owe u alot sia.u've really been a wonderful "sister"..n i admit sometimes i take u for granted.hmmm...really really really sorry..n thank you very very much :)
yen (u're flyin off to australia rite?) : well..i'm sure if u don't see this, one of the girls in your clique (or all of them) will read this n tell u abt it.not too sure what actually was going on in the beginning of last year, but thanks for whatever u've done for me.to be honest, i still have the letters u wrote (no, i'm not a psycho or sth) jus for...dunno la.just can't find a compelling enough reason to throw them away (meaning part of me wants to keep it la!).haha.anyway hope u have a gr8 time in perth, n thank goodness u found henry!haha..
jo (doubt u'll read this la) : i'l be very honest with you la.the reason we kinda got together...i'm not very sure.i liked u from the start, but never really got to the stage of liking you enuf to want to be with you.guess mel n the other girls kinda settled that part, eh? though the relationship didn't really take off, i always felt a..sense of competition with km n mel..its as though someone's pushing us to be as close as they are, n that's prob y i've been kinda demanding.sorry..nevertheless, i liked u more as time goes by, n i've always tried my best to make things work out b/w us..did it? i tot it did, towards the end. like i told u, physical intimacy n the likes are not important, as long as u love me, i'm happy. n personally, i'm glad that we kinda got together la.though things will never really work out b/w the 2 of us, thanks for everything u've done n thanks for, being there i guess. though it hurts tremendously when u made that phone call that nite, n it hurts even more when we kinda ignored each other after that, n it hurts the most when there's no way this thing can work regardless of how much effort put in, thanks for everything, yea? still miss u sometimes...but as cliche as it may sound, i'll always remember u (for the good things, ofcos..)
li : well...yeah.u did make a difference.remember the poem? well...it hurts.there's nothin left that i can do, cos whatever i can, i've done.i assumed u've given it much tot and came to a solid conclusion when u said yes, gues i'm wrong.its not entirely ur fault, its mine.i've never taken risks that are too big, but i tot u were worth it.i'm gues i made the wrong bet, n like most poor gamblers, things ended up worst.friends?things will never be the same.u know it too.when i told u to think hard abt it cos i'd rather have a friend always den risk losing you forever, u said i'll nvr lose you.wanna say that again?the ball's in your court now..
xiangyun (u'll nver read this, unless lydia tells u abt it..haha) : though we eventually ain't close at all, just wanna thank u..cos i'll always remember the start of life in njc with your face. dun wanna talk abt what happened n stuff cos u know ur story, n i know mine, n that's it. but i'll admit sth now which i nvr dare admit long before : i actually liked you. its totally inconsequential now cos u've moved on and so have i a long time ago, n the fork road which seperated us will meet just like 2 parallel lines, but i'll jus like to thank you for...erm...the memory la.haha

oh well..so much for the trip down memory lane.if ur name ain't in here, it doesn't mean i don't remember you.remember i'm a guy who don't take risks that are too great? haha..n this entry's meant to..kinda wrap up the this 2 years la.
oh well...guess that's abt it! my last entry b4 ns...so take care n cya peepz! peace~!