wow...when was the last time i actually posted sth up here? guess no one even remembers i have a blog.haha..cos i nearly forgot i actually had one.
life's been good to me lately...i'm still living ofcourse, and i'm slowly adapting to life in the navy. making more friends there, and i'm starting to enjoy my life there. the pay's good too, so what's there to complain?haha..i'm jus living my life day after day, not knowing what to expect out of mids wing, and just counting the days like every1 else..
shall not irritate you guys with my naration of my life in mids wing, so i'll only tell you guys what u guys wanna know if i actually get to see you guys..if we ever still meet. shall not even complain of the ridiculous punishment i'm getting for the seemingly dumbest of accidents..cos i realised its better not to think abt it la..
didn't know my buddy was actually a BIG guy. not big in terms of physical built and size, but big in terms of stature. he's actually a white horse (his mom's somebody in mindef apparently) and he's the buddy of teo eng siang (dunno how to spell..but u know who he is la). kinda got a shock when i found that out..but it can only be good! and he's one of the luckiest dudes ever, being the bf of rj's prom queen! darn lucky love sick dude..haha
didn't actually think i'll ever be attracted to any girl in SAF, especially since the day i stepped into tekong i told myself the next 2 yrs will be as good as not hanging out with girls i can actually go anywhere further den friends.guess what? i'm wrong again..
dun think any1 in mids wing will eventually find my blog, but i'll try to keep this discreet. she's a nice and sweet girl, the kind that reminded me awfully of j. she's so similar to j that i actually tot fate's playing with me, cos she's the sporty kind (what do u expect out of a swimmer?) and she talks alot (we actually spent nights talking so much we hardly slept..) she's also a...tomboyish girl who's happy-go-lucky n craves food (esp chocolate)...reminds you of j? reminds me alot of her sia..
the worst thing is...she doesn't mind talkin crap to me. she actually looked for me to ask me to study (which is actually keyword to askin me to talk cock with her la..) and i eventually spent the entire night (and early morning if u wanna talk abt it) at her cabin talkin abt nothin in particular..n i can't help but feel that she shares the same feelings i have for her. perhaps i'm wrong again?
i don't know many girls out there whom i can talk to for hours with no topic in mind, and continue the next night. the fact that she sweet, cute and nice makes things even harder for me..and to compound it all, she reminds me so much of my happier times with j. what am i to do with a girl like that? what am i to do when she would actually spend an entire afternoon with me in town with NOTHING in mind to do and no plans at all? we walked around town frm end to end till i was so exhausted i couldn't talk anymore..i was simply walking and...enjoyin her company till 9 plus? is she just being nice or is there sth else? i wanna think that she's just being nice and i'm just fantasizing...once again. but then again...would i pass out on such a girl? i don't wanna be lonely no more, i don't wanna have to pay for this. i don't wanna know my lover at my door, is another heartache on my list..i don't wanna be lonely any more
she doesn't deny it, but she doesn't accept it either. i know she will not be interested because her life now is basically training and triathelons and more races. she runs around and swims around in her free time, and i know for sure time for relationships is definitely out for her. what's more, i'm in the navy now and training should take priority, especially when i have 40 other people to interact with. she cannot be the focal point of my life now with so much on the line and so much to do. she cannot be the focal point of my life now that i should be concentrating on my training, and the many more months ahead before i commission. she cannot be the focal point of my life now that i hardly know her apart from what she tells me...can she?
i can't believe i can actually be falling into this situation while still servin in the SAF as a trainee..but now i really need help..what on earth did i get myself into?
oh well...let's change topic shall we? liverpool won the champs league!! man u lost the FA CUP!! hell...ac milan and man u both lost it in the same fashion!! both teams (my fav teams) played quality football, but lost out on moments of individual brilliance and moments of...let downs. hell..life is unfair, eh? credit to liverpool though they really did put up sth to fight, unlike arsenal. but it kinda reminds me...is effort and hardwork really everything?
kinda lost touch with alot of stuff...so hopefully i'll be able to catch up with other parts of my life soon...for now atleast i caught you again, blog!